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Sunday, February 21, 2010

With All My Heart

~WITH ALL MY HEART

鏡に映った 掛け違えたシャツのボタン
そんな些細な事で君がいれば良かったと思う
逢えない時間が 僕らの愛を強くした
言葉に詰まるならそっと頬にkissをしよう
それぞれを待つ日々は 忙しく過ぎるけど
こんなにも こんなにもただ…
逢いたくて ずっと君を思うよ… 心から君を
もう一度 my heart 伝えたくて
君が呼べば 僕は行くよ
君のそばで笑いたいんだよ

ふとした瞬間 傷ついてしまった心
ひとりじゃ直せない痛み 僕が癒したいよ
今逢えない時なら ただ君の面影を
抱きしめて 抱きしめてほら…

 
どんな日も ずっと君思うよ…心から君を
もう二度と your heart 離さないから
君が泣けば 僕は行くよ
君をいつも守りたいんだよ

 
君が望むなら 全てを尽くして
君の描く未来 永遠の夢を叶えたい I wish
君の描く未来 永遠の夢を叶えたい I wish

逢いたくて ずっと君を思うよ… 心から君を
何度でも to heart 贈る smile for you
悲しくても 嬉しくても
君のそばで笑いたいんだよ
With all my heart
With all my heart
With all my heart

Find me, and I’ll be there for you
Find me, and I’ll be there for you
Find me, and I’ll be there for you

This song is one of the best song Tohoshinki sung!! The music, the lyrics, the way they delivered the song, the voices are LOVE♥!!!!
the first time I've heard this song------to tell you the truth---my heart exploded..
It's a sweet touching song and I'm sure you guys will love it too!
 
[if you haven't downloaded it yet----please visit my other blogsite..HERE]
 
Oh, when I find a good translation of this song--I'll post it here..I'm not capable of translating a whole song yet...I still find it difficult..^^
 
Whoever wrote this song----I'll kowtow to him! ♫
 
♫musicismylife♫

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Belated Happy Birthday Changmin!

Ahh I didn't manage to post my greeting on the exact day..ごめん ね チャンミン ! ^^
とにかく..おたんじょび おめでとう!!

Today is my idol's birthday!

Ahh, there are many people celebrating their birthdays during February ne?--some of them I don't know.lol
Happy Birthday!!

Yesterday, I went to a restaurant and passed my resume. I've been praying so many times, hoping to be employed before this month ends. I really pray God could hear my prayers.
I can't wait to give my first salary to my parents, and then buy myself a gift in return for the hardwork--maybe Tohoshinki's CD (Universal Records Phil. had released their "secret code" album this month!! ^^) or I'd buy ingredients so I could cook something special for my family. Hmm...even though I'm not a professional Interior decorator..I've always wanted to design my own room and our house,--so when our house is fixed, (I wish I'd have my own room) I'd buy furnitures! *thinking of a good color theme* I want a bright room...or..*scratches head* black and white!..lol
My head's swirling again-----Oh, which career path should I take? I'm nearly at my twenties..I should think about it fast.

[aww my nephew's confined in the hospital today---I hope he gets well soon.♥]

I will live a simple and happy life until the end.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Happy Valentine!

Happy Valentine's Day みんな-さん!!!
[please accept these chocolates from リアン---even if it's just a picture..pls. do accept these ^^]

Honestly, this day is one of the days I don't anticipate (aside from my birthday). Why?--yeah, because I don't have a "special someone" to share it with..lol [I can't imagine myself in one anyway---I still have lots to do before I think about this]..and I'm not able to give chocolates to the person I like..why?---he's too far from me, AND I bet before Valentine's day ends..he'll receive millions of 'em. *imagining a room full of gifts* hahaha. If i do send mine---will he be able to see it? will he be able to taste it?----I don't want him to have Tonsilitis..
Anyway---my current playlist contains Jang Geun Suk, F.T.Island, tvxq, etc.
speaking of F.T.Island-----they'll hold a concert here in Manila on March 06, 2010..unfortunately I won't be able to attend..I hope they'll have roadshows for free, so I could catch a glimpse of Lee Hong Ki..^^
*hopeful*

Thursday, February 11, 2010

To be a Chef or not?

Ahh..実は..夢 を たくさん が ある..
そ 今..えらぶ の は 分からない ! >,<
だれ か..たすけて ください!..(それ は いい'ん です か?)

シエフ と ト ステージ ペポーマ と インテリアデザイナー と フライトスチュワーデス と と どち の ほお が いい と 思います か?.
hahaha えらぶ の は むずかしい です ね?..
お金 が ない から, えらぶ こと が 出きない. けれど---I can't let something like that stop me ne?
I think I can learn on my own, I just have to be patient 'coz it will take time.

一時 前 に..ジエジュン の インタビュー を 見ました.
それは私のシェフとなるようにしたくなった  hehehe. ほんとう です!
かれ の ために 何か 特別な 料理 を 作る と 言った----それ は 何ですか?--you better read it yourself..lol *evil laughs*
マガジン を もう よみ-おわった..I found myself smiling..nyahahaha なぜ?-----また ひ-み-つ!..I'll reveal these things in time..but now's not the right moment..
I want to bake ケエーキ, ピーザ and other sweets as well. Hahaha!
彼は私のために 料理 を 作って、私は彼のために焼くよ ! tsktsk--I'm imagining things again---someone spank me! ハハハ!
but if this fairytale won't ever happen.still..ジャブチエが 料理 を する の は やって みる.

I really hope, I'll not be the only one smiling after I fulfill my dream. ..ジエジュンの 笑顔 を 見たい.
もっと 大事 なのは私の家族や、将来の家族...
将来の家族の中で ジエジュン が います か?...*sigh**smile*
もし私があります彼のこと、それから私は彼の世界だろう、彼は自分の世界になります.

Ja, it's time to study again 'coz I'm not good with Japanese. My vocabulary, Kanji, and  grammar are still limited..*fighting*


Sunday, February 7, 2010

Cuteness Overload & Thankful! ^___^

Ahhh it's 3am already!!!------omo..I'm not sleepy yet..and it's obvious I'm still in my Onii's room..bwahahahaha!!
everyone's sleeping soundly---I just pray nothing will come lurking around----you know..ghosts..*shouts* LOL

4 hours ago, I started searching for random pictures (for my blog )..wahahaha now, I'm stuck with "the gang's" pictures..especially JJ. *cuteness overload*
Even though I'm focused on them----I saw BigBang photo gifs too!! they look hilarious!!!----now I finally realized I like BB too! Like TVXQ, they are great performers, the difference is---their music genre. I'm not much into Korean music,but these 2 groups sing Jpop. They even beat some of the Jpop artists..They have the voice; the moves; the looks and charisma..tsk tsk..かれら に 完璧 だ と 思う。

Ahahaha look at GD and Daesung!! LOL


Today's my Grandma's death anniversary. We went to her house and had a little gathering with our relatives.I don't eat Chicken Macaroni salad, but I ate lots 'coz Ahying-ne excluded potato (I eat potatoes,I just don't like the taste combined with mayonaisse) . The 1st time I ate it was at Ahying-ne's birthday last year.
While we were there, Onii asked me what's Onee's age. I told him, she'll turn 25 this year. He said "Omo, I have to have a baby by 2012". WHHHHAAAATT!!?? The thought of him having a baby at 25----isn't that still early for men? but the thought of cuddling your own niece/nephew brought smile to my face. Onii said he'll find the right woman this year...awwww..I told him "me too"..*ouch* he tapped me and said, "you'll not search for your man, let him find you...that is IF someone would try to find you". another OUCH.
It felt like an anvil hit my head, I sank at my seat...Onii's words hit me. Aigoo...
During my 19 years of living, I never had a special relationship with anyone. Hmmm..whatever!hahahahaha..for now, I have to focus on my goals for my family and me, when I accomplish 'em..that's when I'll give room for love matters. きさま アニキ!!! LOL

Anyway..My cousin called from Singapore with a hopeful news. What was that?----まだ ひみつ です!
I feel thankful because there are people around who cares for me...despite my "anti-social" attitude, those people don't mind. THANK YOU!!! thank you so much!
Actually, I'm not an "anti-social". I just choose whoever I feel are true to me.. I hate those who pretend they get along well, but deep inside, the other's trying to plot something and the other one's clueless. *ahhh people*

Oh---my Onee's writing a novel about us (Rui, Marlyn-ne, Yuki-ne, Jessie-ne, and me)..she's currently writing mine..wahahahaha..she's amused with my part---who wouldn't??---I just realized how funny I am in real life..Take note----my sister knew it! Gosh, she really knew me! ^__^ awwww...
I just wish her story will happen to us..to me...(except for the "stalker" part ..LOL)..ahhhh it's already late..
gotta rest my eyes..my precious eyes..*winkwink*
おやすみなさい みんな-さん!!


Saturday, February 6, 2010

BREAK OUT! Happy 24th Birthday Yunho!

 

 おたんじょび  おめでとう ユンホ

Ahhh it's thanks to 東方神起 that I'm here..with my old crazy-optimistic self again. *BANZAI*
I've been in my chamber for a month, thinking negatively in one corner; allowing postive energies to pass---without absorbing even a pinch of happiness. I've wasted time----almost 2 years now..
今 まで 何も 出きない  けど 何か あります よね? I've waited..and waited but nothing came..and nothing will come!
I have to find that something myself. My only problem is where will I begin and how?
Till now, I'm clueless...all I know is I have to find that something even without knowing what that something is. むずかしい な! The big wall between me and the world must be broken. I pray, this year it would..
I have to overcome my fears and BREAK OUT!! (lol--this is 東方神起's new single..) Enough whining..i need some action!! and I think, the path I'm about to take is a good one. ^^

I've thought about this thoroughly after hearing the song Break Out! It made me remember what I really am; what I'm aiming for; why I'm still holding on.

Break Out's Translation:

I keep praying don’t forget it
Baby we keep the faith eternally
I keep praying don’t forget it
Baby we keep the faith eternally

The dream that I'm looking now
is like a distant sky before dawn
Lighting up the road
I walk on it to ascertain the journey ahead

The sun will never stop ascending as there will be no endless tears
Because we are able to think that way someday, we are able to live on

BREAK OUT ! BREAK OUT!
The key to open the door to tomorrow is surely in your hand
BREAK OUT ! BREAK OUT! There's no such things as fate
You are the one who decides on your future Make yourself

I keep praying don’t forget it
Baby we keep the faith eternally

Even when the days are passing by
Seem to be stretching to the other side of the sky
When I remember your smiling face
That time will come back

People meet each other like the way that a crescent moon is filled up
Our hearts shine when they are together as one
BREAK OUT! BREAK OUT! Tears are definitely not sorrows
But they are the footprints of our dreams
BREAK OUT! BREAK OUT!
Believe that there are things that only you can do Believe yourself

I keep praying don’t forget it
Baby we keep the faith eternally
I keep praying don’t forget it
Baby we keep the faith eternally

In order for that wish to come true
I will keep praying no matter how long it takes

BREAK OUT! BREAK OUT! Tears are definitely not sorrows
But they are the footprints of our dreams
BREAK OUT! BREAK OUT!
Believe that there are things that only you can do Believe yourself

BREAK OUT ! BREAK OUT!
The key to open the door to tomorrow is surely in your hand
BREAK OUT ! BREAK OUT! There's no such things as fate
You are the one who decides on your future Make yourself

I keep praying don’t forget it
Baby we keep the faith eternally
I keep praying don’t forget it
Baby we keep the faith eternally

BREAK OUT ! BREAK OUT!
BREAK OUT ! BREAK OUT!




These guys never fail to cheer me up---even though the song is not just for me (for everyone as well),I felt like it's made for リアン. It's like they are in front singing..delivering the message of the song with their own voices face to face. (now, I think I could go back to my sketching)
Good thing I listened to this song; good thing I've known ジエジュン, ジュンス, ユンホ, ユチュン, and チャンミン. They will be my inspiration as I take this road called life. いつも いつまでも.

2人 の "" が もう 生まれた とき...3人 は 無限 の 幸せ が あります.

You keep staring at the sky hoping one day you'd spread your arms to catch me
I keep staring at the sky praying one day you'll descend from the heavens to fetch me

Monday, February 1, 2010

Can't I Love You?


I know I'm too late to react on this..but I just finished watching "Queen Seon Duk" korean drama. Actually, I've seen this at mysoju.com last year, but when I saw the number of episodes (62 eps) I thought it could be boring to be that long. I resent what I did. I'm not exaggerating, but this drama is ...I dunno how to describe it, but I love it from beginning to end. Although the ending part was tragic, who could change it right?--it's part of Korean history, it would end the way it ended in reality; triumph and death.

My favorite characters were Deokman (Queen Seon Duk herself), Alcheon, Lady Mishil, Yushin and last but not the least, Bidam.
I like Deokman for her courage and wits. An extraordinary woman and a great ruler---no doubt about that.
Alcheon for his loyalty and fighting for what is right.
Yushin for supporting Deokman all the way.
Lady Mishil for her devotion and wits. Even though she's the antagonist, like Deokman, she's just fighting for what's important to her; her loyal people and Silla. But there was one thing I didn't like about her..abandoning Bidam, and killing without resent.
Bidam for being devoted to the one he loves, for being a great fighter, for being him in front of Deokman. Honestly, I pitied him..why? All his life, no one cared for him, nobody needed him. His mother abandoned him, Lord Munno never treated him as his own son, he never taught Bidam what's right and wrong, he never acknowledged Bidam's efforts. He didn't feel secured nor loved, until Deokman came into his life.
But it seemed everything was against them. It would've been a happy ending for the two of them.



In the end, the unification of the three kingdoms (Silla, Baekje, Goguryeo) was fulfilled during Kim ChunChu's reign (it's not shown in the drama).

I cried even before Bidam died. It's really sad. It made me want to jump in the screen and hug Bidam. It made me want to kill all the people hindering him and Deokman. Korean dramas never fail to make me cry. Waaahhhh my chest hurts until now, I need to distract myself from this drama or my heart will suffer. It's too early to have any heart ailment (lol + sob= crazy).

I suggest you guys watch it if you haven't yet. It's worth watching. ^^ Plus.. you'll have a brief knowledge about this part of Korean history.

They even made the actor Kim Nam Gil (Bidam) and Lee Yo Won (Deokman) sing for the drama's OST. I bet it was sold out!

Mr. Kim sang "Can't I Love You?" (from Bidam to Deokman):






and Ms. Lee sang "Bidam" (from Deokman to Bidam).







This is Bidam's song's translation:

Even it is so painful, I can’t feel it
Even I’m waiting for you and you wouldn’t come
Even I think of you with shaking so badly, I can’t feel it
Since the day I put your heart in my mind
I can’t put my heart else where
Even if it hurts and breaks my heart apart, I won’t close my heart
I am who was living in a lonely world
You’re the only one who can make me smile
Can’t I love you? Can you come to me?
Just for once, can you hug me in you arms?
You’re the only one I love
Can’t you accept my heart?
The reason why I’m still breathing in this terrible loneliness
It’s all because of you
Can’t I love you? Can you come to me?
Once again, can you hug me in your arms?
You’re the only one I love
For the first time and last time
Even you’re alive, you can’t be held in my arms
Even you throw my heart away from your mind
Can’t I love you? Even if I’m just behind your back
Distantly, I just can look at you from afar
Even if I just can protect your shadow
Even like this, it’s alright.. even only I love you, it’s okay